Tout ce dont j'ai besoin

J'ai tout ce dont j'ai besoin- I have everything that I need!
I was thinking about this today: I am so happy right now! I have a wonderful family that I love hanging out with, and wonderful friends to love and support me. I have a great job and I love going to school, I look forward to learning and even doing my homework, chemistry is the most fascinating thing in the world. I have food and shelter (a house we made so beautiful!) and I have the freedom to read my bible and talk to God whenever I want.
Why has he blessed me so much? I don't understand. I am so overwhelmed with gratitude. I don't deserve all this lavish blessing; especially after spending most of my life complaining about what I didn't have.
Last year some painful and difficult things happened, and it wasn't until now that I have begun to see how the Lord actually orchestrated all those events- allowing them to cause me such grief- because he deeply loves me, and he is committed to the spread of his glory. I was so disillusioned that God didn't answer my prayers, but now as I see them in perspective it brings tears to my eyes that God was so faithful and good in NOT answering them.
Thank you, God!